the reverse juggling effect,
clarity resulting from the absorption of her non-clarity.
focus by external means, busying the machine this time in order
to use the dilapitated forefront of my imagination
because it is needed.
oh, would that such clarity of mynd and purpose could be sought
for internal means, for immediate momentary analysis.
but alas, a martyr of my own design, of my own demise...
power not able to self-actualize lies dormant,
genie-like until summoned, able to grant wishes
but not freedom, miracles but not mundane actualizations.
can this entity not sense its own need?
if so, why does it render itself powerless?
it is the crux of such quest-ions which render methods of coping
such as multiple personality development understandable,
perhaps not only sane, but ingenious.
polytheism made its believers happier than monotheism,
why is monoself the norm?